blaaaaack sheep

What a rollercoaster ride it has been this week.

Cathy commented before that I am a person who wears her heart on her sleeve. That is true. I struggle to mask my annoyance, struggle to hide my irritation and struggle to conceal my fatigue.

Lately, I’ve been attempting to do what I would call – “Go nuts and you won’t think about the problems“.

Some of the stupid / silly things I’ve done this week:
- In the midst of meeting an assignment deadline, announce to people around that I have a craving for Paddlepop
- Buy a pencil box from 7-11
- Pretend that my computer mouse is my hamster
- Change 2 names in Wee Boon’s iPhone contact list to ‘God’ and ‘Jesus’ (EPIC FAIL.)
- Add a new entry to Tifen’s HP contact list called “Mother Mary” and instigate the person involved to sms her “Have you seen Jesus lately?” (They proceeded on to have an extremely entertaining conversation.)
- Act as though Huimin’s lion pencilcase is alive (DING DING!)

For the record, I don’t think my strategy worked. The problems remained.

While my peers are frantically counting down to the start of exams, I find myself preoccupied with worries about people in my life. What am I going to do about your passivity? How come you’re immersing yourself in a cloud of negativity and desolation? You mean you got yourself a new girlfriend just like that?

Maybe I care a little too much for my own good. And I need to compartmentalize my thoughts in a healthy manner.

Gotta let go and let God.