in the moment of my weakness

Believe me, the rascal is actually snoozing right there. They have a strange penchant for that spot.

Tracy is supposed to supposed to be buried 10 feet deep in her stats textbooks and notes and practising but a wave of procrastination has hit her, hard. Okay, 10mins of blogging and off I go!

I was talking to my brother yesterday night and he seems unnervingly calm for someone who is about to take his A Levels in 1 month. “Oh, I got a U for my H1 geog prelims. Never study.”

There are people who study for a quiz as if their life depends on it and yet there are those who don’t lift a finger for their major examinations. I hope to be someone in between those two extremes because I trust in God’s providence and at the same time, I know He helps those who help themselves.

School’s starting. (: This means that there will be so many more opportunities to lean on Him. One particular area of concern is physical rest. I feel so sleep-deprived and cranky these days.

I’ll be f&ping for two people this week. The reason why I’m announcing this is because I hope that you’ll f&p along with me. Ask me who!

P/S: I got a skype account but I haven’t added any contacts.

see you later.

There are so many words and thoughts jumbled up in my head but I don’t think I’ll be letting them out. Not anytime soon, anyway.

Come to think of it, recess week wouldn’t have been as fruitful if I had devoted all my time to mugging - An amazing Monday afternoon with the Cheesy Celebrity, sending Ouxiang off to Warwick, surprising Guofeng in his room with Shijie and Huiying, being granted the privilege of leading worship during LEAP, sandwich making at Istana Park with the unit, sending the the Hope KS team off, FFT with Claudia on Thursday, the time at POPcafe with my shepherd, bumping into Yvonne at Raffles City and being able to spend a few hours together, a fruitful time of shepherding with Huiying and of course the grand send off on Friday.

Wednesday:
DIM SUM BUFFET which we couldn’t really finish.

Somehow I like this photo very much.

There was a mini amazing race for Shoobee and Yongsheng. (: I’m not sure if it achieved the purpose of leading them down memory lane, but we certainly had fun.

“Remember, you have to multiply and divide before you add and subtract!”

- Cathy, to Daniel and Yongsheng, who were solving a math question created by Crabby and Cathy.

If you don’t get the joke, it’s because Daniel and Yongsheng train math olympiad participants.

Poor Yongsheng kena blocked. -__-”

Friday:

We were all looking at another camera. Looking at this picture makes me very, very sad.

Believe me, I have never seen Yongsheng and Shoobee so downcast, ever. When they walked into the departure gate, I felt this emptiness that I never experienced when Suet, Pris and Ah Foo left. Perhaps, it finally sank in that all the international students of NYCB3 were now overseas.

(: Anaaaaa. I wasn’t in the OAC group pic and the ZONKIES group photo is somewhere out there. Aye, I wish I got to talk to her properly on that day. I’m sure you will cope fine. You’re one of the strongest women I know. -hug-

After WFL today, I was overwhelmed. There was so much wisdom packed into that 2h teaching. And I still need to mull over those words a little more. The question now - How to apply that knowledge into tangible action?

On side note, hello Weiting. The conversation with you today was brief but… (: (: (:

P/S: I saw somebody today. HOHOHO.

unfailing love sets me free

My SD card did a booboo. I lost all the pictures I took from Shoobee and Yongsheng’s farewell. Sad sad whine whine sulk sulk.

Forgive the poor photography. Jam was extremely excited. And Ham was too busy gobbling up food to notice the camera. It’s getting so fat.

I have a reason to cheer.

MY OB CASE ANALYSIS HAS BEEN SUBMITTED!

It is such a relief, really. I shall take a moment to catch my breath before embarking on the academic challenges for next week. Think Statistics quiz and the HL808 research paper.

Tomorrow will be the 3rd time I’m at Changi Airport sending people off this week. Ouxiang left on Monday, the Hope KS Missions team today and tomorrow…? I will hate to see you, you and you go. When I think of these final departures, I feel as though my heart is being tied up in a knot.

HELLO DEAREST SHEPHERD:
I treasured the time we spent at Popular Cafe today. (: And I am thankful that you are able to identify with my situation. Sharing my stories and my life with you is easy and carefree. Thank you for all the guidance and patience with me. I am truly privileged to learn from you.

Personal mission for now: To lead a blameless and pure life.

eyes wide open

It’s 6.11am. I can’t believe I stayed up the whole night. The OB case analysis sucked my brains dry. (It’s still not complete!) The calendar cards are done.

Only short sentences work for me now.

Thank you green tea. Thank you chocolate bars. Thank you SEXY RABBIT. Thank you Mr Sentimental. Thank you Deliverer of my Stats Textbook. Thank you Fung. Thank you all who prayed.

Thank you, dear God, for giving me Strength to keep going. (: (: (:

reminder to self

Do not take depressed people too seriously. (And don’t be fooled into thinking you can share your burdens with such individuals. Mistake of the century!)

a little upward turn of the lips

Cathy said bumping into Pastor Jeff today was exhilarating. Hearing her say that (with such exuberance, too) was even more exhilarating. For me, at least.

It’s true. When you return to the family of God, people welcome you with open arms. Both literally and figuratively.

NYCB3 is truly atas. -__-” We usually hang out at Marks and Spencers before service. Today, we actually dined at Sarpino’s Pizza at night. While the rest of the world ate at Meridien food court. The pizzas were heavenly. (Go give it a try! If you go in a group of 8, 2 large pizzas will set you back about 5 bucks per person.) But the ice cream cones ($4.95 for eight) from Carrefour afterward were ghastly.

Allow me to rate the company of my cg – Top-notch. (:

There’s an Oscar the Grouch around and he gets on my nerves.

About recess week: I don’t want to simply grit my teeth and get by. I don’t want to complain about my OB project / OB case analysis / marketing project / revision for stats quiz / HL808 research paper which has a 50% weightage of the final grade.

Help me be joyful, Lord. The last thing I’d want is for myself to get overly caught up with the activities next week. Or worse, be so inward-looking that I forget about everyone else.

[Proverbs 11:25]

A generous man will prosper;
he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.

vanessa

I enjoy talking to her a lot. She’s not someone who will simply agree with everything you say. And that’s a good thing.

Hello OUXIANG, I treasure this friendship with you greatly! I’ll miss you when you go to Warwick but I promise that I will make every effort to stay in touch. You’ll do fine over there. Independent girl, right? Do keep the faith and let it grow stronger. (: I <3 you.

2 trips to the airport next week, 4 people to say goodbye (for now) to.

I thought to myself while walking home today, “So many people are flying away.”